Exhausted, worn out, weary, emotional, beat, hopeful, peaceful, confident and trusting. Those are a lot of emotions to be feeling at the same time. Let me tell you about the last 24 hours.
We got a phone call yesterday from our Colorado Agency that did our homestudy. There was a baby that had been born in Florida and did we want to go pick him up the next day. Uhhhh...come again? We would be the only family in line if we said yes. We prayed, we reeled, we tried to figure out how we could make this work. How could we get to FL in less than 24 hours notice? What would we do with the kids? How would Jody swing this with work? We have NOTHING...I mean NOTHING for the baby yet. No carseat, no bottles, no formula, no clothes...NOTHING! Oh and the money. We were about $12,000 short. How could we come up with that? I mean, this was a baby...possibly our son, who needed parents to come and get him. The agony!!!
We prayed and asked our parents to pray. We looked at all the details and decided that there were too many unknowns to move forward. We had no details about the baby's health, background of the birth mom, what the exact situation looked like. We waited and as the hours passed and we still had no information, we decided we could not move forward. We LOVE our agency in NV. We trust them. We know that the Lord led us to them for a reason. We want to use them to adopt our child. We did not know this FL agency. We did not know their practices and their level of integrity.
Peace set in and the longer time went by, we knew we had made the right decision. But, boy is it hard!!!
So, we press on. We trust on.
We will be presented to a birth mom next week and we know that our child is coming. In the meantime, I realized that it might be a good idea to gather some things here to have ready. We trust God that He will bring the finances as we need them! (We will keep you posted!) We just received a $5,000 grant, so that is super exciting!!
Here is a list of the things we need. If you have one (or some) of these things that you are no longer using, please let us know!
* baby monitor (we do not need anything fancy!)
* newborn and size 1 diapers
* a bouncy seat
* a swing
* bottles
* formula
* burp cloths
* bibs
* You know...all the stuff that you need for a newborn, which I got rid of because I did not know we would need them again...those things!!
Thank you for praying for us! We so appreciate each and every one of you! Even though I have so many emotions racing through my veins this day, we are so confident in the one who knows the whole story. He is the I AM and HE will never leave us or forsake us. He knew our child would be part of our family from the beginning of time. In that I put my trust!
