We went to the Symphony today. Before it started, the cute gal in front of me started a conversation. She had her 6 year old daughter with her and we got onto the topic of children. She asked about my kids and I told her I had these 3 and we were adopting. She asked some more questions and I told her our story. Then, she told me she was a birth mom. I was so honored that she would share that information with me. I was so overwhelmed that the Lord had ordained that interaction. She is just what I needed. She gave me some great advice and told me to trust the Lord in this process. I will probably never see her again, but what a sweet moment. Her name was Joy.
I have hesitated to update because I felt like there was not a lot to report. We've been waiting....and waiting....and waiting to be matched with a birth mom and what should I share about that??
The interesting thing the Lord has revealed to me, is that the process is as important as the matching part. It's in the waiting where the learning happens, where the growth occurs.
It's been hard. We've been presented multiple times and it has not been the right situation yet. That has been hard. Emotionally hard. Mentally hard. Have I mentioned that it has been hard?
Here are the things I know. It is not about me. It is about this little person that the Lord is going to allow me to be mommy to. It is about what is happening in my heart as I wait. It is about surrender and trust. It is about that birth mom.
The Bible mentions the word "wait" 129 times. Do you think just maybe we have something to learn in it? It's the waiting that builds character. It's the waiting that builds our trust. It's the waiting that brings surrender. I am trying so hard to sit and be present in those truths.
So, here is what is happening now. We will be presented to another birth mom tomorrow. This may be the situation that the Lord has planned. It may not. Either way, I will choose to trust him and try to find joy in the process. Please pray for us. Please pray for her.
It was so amazing to have the face of a sweet birth mom to look into and be reminded of the other side of the picture. The Lord brought me Joy today, in more ways than one!
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